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I've just watched glee and it made a whole impact on me. On how I really view myself.

Although its so sad that I'm the "SHALLOW" person I am. Fear not I've had worse but

this is HARD. They got this whole Madonna Episode where guys are treating girls like

crap and I just hate how they do it. Their like the boss of everyone and they just see

each other as well as respect them because of their talents and not just an individual.

*sigh Well back to the real deal, I'm merely going over board with myself. I don't know

I just feel very backed on the wall, and its closing in on me. I think there's pretty much no

point in getting all marshmallow and gooey. But I do! :(( A sad day for me, really. I don't

really know, I don't have a clue nor do I wanna even talk about it. Its not that I'm leaving my

problems hanging it's just that some things are way too hurtful to even touch.

I don't want to have another conversation nor negotiation for the night. For me what's done

is done, no anger, no frustration nor anxiety. Just PAIN. PURE HARD HITTING PAIN. That

I believe will be way too difficult for me to overcome.

Back to the wall...... I'm still backed at it and I feel that I'll be pushed and banged against it

many times. Then followed by a mirror that will be shattered upon my face, whose shards

will be pressed against my palms. I can only imagine what I'm in for.

Tick.Tock again went the Clock. Time's a wasting so I better get cracking.