The Frozen Frigola

Had a HARD week, last week. *sigh oh well I'm on the school's silent drill team :)) haha which I find so cool and hard since I'm not used to those I better practice the CADET WAY!! XD

For now, hmmmmmm got my quiz results and they were soooooo LOW! I CAN SWEAR ON IT!
Bit by Bit something's not right. I know it and I don't like it. SOMEONE has been freakishly sending me Orchids. Though thinking about it the Sherlock Holmes way I know exactly who the perpetrator is! haha xD Crime scene? lol! I don't really like those acts. I don't wanna hurt anyone anymore. :( I find everything too much for 3 weeks. I'm not expecting anything anymore. Geez and I'm back to therapy people. Nothing new, its like been there done that stuff and all that's left are the imy's and a whole lot of other things that goes with the peppermint ice cream I ate earlier at Robinsons with Anji ne':) It was fun though :D


Just recently I've been feeling the side effects of last March's damage on my hand. It tends to hurt a lot when I use it and it really just makes me twitch in pain, oh well my fault for putting the darn hand by the PUNCH hahahaha xD I don't regret it though :)

Life goes on for me, as well as everything else. Again I'm waiting by the darn train station for who knows who and heaven knows whats gonna happen :P I just love watching people pass by on me, I feel somewhat relaxed and I don't know, calm in a sense.

For now, I'm stranded. The yellow brick road isn't for me to take for now. I'll sit and wait. The way I should have done 7 months ago. The way it wasn't supposed to be broken and I have no one but myself to blame for whatever happened. and now I pay. Yes. What's next? Who knows, a lot may pass by in a train station though unlike the passengers I remain stranded and frozen.

Krushers :]

I had so much Fun today with the orientation stuffs :D Went back in time with Ronald :] had a new friend and the CRUSH Kenneth Arcilla seriously I went a-wall earlier with that hahaha comedy much back at lover's lane :D Lotsa Pictures :D and walked with Ren the whole day talked so much about Music, Life, and everything there is to be considered :] Had lunch with rachele, jae, sheena, JP, josh, bea, sam, and christian. lotsa pulling! XD hahaha by me of course! :D

By the afternoon it was Orientation time with the artlets :D we're 1,156 to be exact :D and got to know more about ren,(we were together for the most part people hahaha xD)It was long and kinda boring but anyway cheer went great!! XD Finally, went to KFC to buy Krushers for the first time haha got mango :D then waited for Mang Estong to pick me up along with ren hahaha besties??? pretty much :D

For the sad part my dog died :"(
Off to study :] gonna need the brains :D

The Scarlet Pen

I think its pretty much safe to say that EVERYTHING'S ON ME NOW! The heartbreak, the responsibility, the trust, the criticisms, the expectations EVERYTHING! I CAN'T GET A HOLD OF MYSELF ANY LONGER! Every now and then I go blank and what comes next? Tears? As much as possible I save myself from near death experiences like two weeks ago which my dad hasn't got a clue of.

Surviving is what describes me best I'm pretty much honest on that part. I'm about to fall apart and my DAD knows it very well. Either way I have to get up and live normally. Though I don't put a plastered smile nor frown. I just end up tired and bummed out of everything else. Trying futilely to comfort myself with academics and books though it paid marvelously with a 1.00 grade on my Theology but at that moment I don't seem to grasp anything. *sigh

I won't last long if I continue with this act, I'm not the best actress around nor the best in containing myself. I had it! I've had enough already! I can only cry once in a while and then sleep. TIREDNESS AND PAIN WRAPPED INTO A BALL TIED WITH A RIBBON ON A SILVER PLATTER. If "you" are enjoying this well happy feasting! Enjoying? Of course you are! Laugh out loud my dear! Sing to the Heavens thank whoever you want to! I can very much tell your smiling right now with me all wretched. HAH! DESERVING AM I? I KNEW THAT SINCE I WAS BORN FOR YOUR INFORMATION! HAPPY MUCH? GOOD FOR YOU! YOU NEED IT SINCE YOU DROWN IN YOUR MISERY EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY HAPPINESS! OBVIOUSLY I'M TIRED, HURT, STRUGGLING AND FOR YOUR PERSONAL CONTENTMENT HARDLY ABLE TO BREATHE BUT DON'T GET ME WRONG I MAYBE IN MY DOWNFALL BUT I WON'T GIVE UP FOR THE SAKE OF EVERYTHING! AND MOST ESPECIALLY NOT WHEN YOUR LAUGHING TO YOUR HEART'S CONTENT! I MAY NOT MAKE YOUR LIFE A LIVING HELL LIKE WHAT YOU DID BUT LET ME TELL YOU THIS I CAN TAKE YOUR HELL ANY DAY!

Sorry for such vulgar words, I'm on the edge. OF EVERYTHING INCLUDED.

Weekender :D *sniffs :'(

Oh well better crank up the books and notes for monday. Miss Macapagal didn't go easy on me. *sigh MISS BEAUTY QUEEN??? where the heck did that come from!!Oh yeah I have a tiara which is my headband! *sigh History was kinda like bed time stories if your not that interested and didn't review the topic. Along the way I got nominated as Vice President but I'm still thinking about it.

Got to meet a whole bunch of people from the block :D there's my seatmate Sheena, an Otaku named Jam also a cosplayer, vincent the bookworm who I think boasts his knowledge (still he can't beat bene :P), Leira the acting class president, Kyle the silent basketball dude, Rachele the pretty witty, Christian the over kulit at the same time "migrating" freak known as ROTC, Jaemy textmate and co-sun user haha, Grace my girlfriend in ROTC, Ton-Ton MY KUYA valedictorian, Sham a wise basketball dude.

*sigh I find it hard to cope somehow. Weird that I find enjoyment with studies than my blockmates tsk. Is that bad? I don't think so its nice for a change. I'm not speaking with broken hearted dude its just that I don't use academics as my cure for that enough! hahaha tama na!!! tsk. Its tita's birthday tomorrow :D hahaha Currently been into a lot of freaky happenings refer to my facebook page :D

I have to thank a lot of people for this week namely aina, haidee, joyce, tristan, regi, alex, leslie, julie, anji, aldridge, ghuzmarie, my blockmates, nicole guevarra, ddr, starbucks, food lots of it, sweets, etc God and Picasso (I mean it no joke, I'll always love you! :)) *screams :) <3

Have a Great Weekend!
God Bless!!!

Hello Pile of Limited stash :P but......

Talk about first day! Oh well , came early to school and got to start the day with my Literature professor Miss Macapagal to which everyone found out to be snobby. (I find that fact true) Except that she's so good! I mean it I was literally blown away! After that rather traumatic encounter to which I can't get over I met Inna Caylao a student from St. Mary's we got to talk all through the next period which turned out to be free since prof's absent. We also got the chance to know about political parties and I happen to pick one which is GAP. I'll be attending the orientation tomorrow then buy something. :)

Also I met up with a few nice people like Lyka whose quite in to cute guys and her schoolmate Ronald who apparently is always at Lyka's back and Sam the quiet student from a Chinese school. I got to call him malandi all because of an umbrella hahahaha xD eventually that was changed into "pards". I also got some KPOP charm in my class to which is uto-uto, I don't blame him though since he merely understands tagalog and I feel kinda guilty for leaving him with the wrong crowd.

It was generally tiring and I have to start up with a whole lot of stuffs to be prepared for friday's discussion!! Oh crap! Oh and I'll be meeting with another "terror" Dr. Co. Though I find it challenging in a sense to keep up with profs here and there :P

Oh and I'm thinking of joining the performing arts group, since they've swept me off my feet earlier with there "real" antics. I'll tell all about that some other time for now. This is where I start.

For the record, I'm doing all of this with a torn soul and a broken heart. :(

This Side Up

Talk about near death experiences huh? I don't wanna talk about it. I'm only human anyway.

They have to understand that. Oh well what now? Back against the wall? Am I? hah! Hell no!!

I'm HANGING BY A DARN THREAD! shit! I don't know well maybe because uhm. I don't really want to get specific with things it makes me drop dead all of a sudden. How do I sleep? Lying down of course!!! XD

Well I'm the villain around here to begin with. tsk I always am. There's nothing left to do but to be the daredevil I am. Sink or Swim and Do or Die. Only now its not a game. It never was. *sigh what to do what to do. hmmmmmmmm do what I do best and what I'm known for :D

I seem so positive? Well yeah. ICU scared the crap outta my system. Damn hard to believe I went from a human being to a cold hard vegetable. :| Better learn the art of controlling tears (is there such a thing?) Well Mom took me out to relax my soul, well I was on my own for the most part.

Oh well. *crash something broke. wait. its my heart. :(

SPLAT :|

Seriously what the hell am I playing at? I can't just go running onto someone and fall over and tell them its nothing. *sigh I understand it but, its hard for me. Being in a situation where I can barely move and say anything, without getting hurt. I wish to disappear. That's all I can say but somewhat I can't.

This post is nothing but scatter brain. There's really nowhere for me to run off to. No one to turn on to. Well better no one when all I ever do is scream and thrash that's much better than hurting anyone. :| Well I'm off to the province tomorrow and into a wedding to which I personally grew lazy to even attend. Somehow, I think I'm into something I'm not. Which is kinda scary but Oh man! Its hard to explain! :P I just can't bear this much pain at once, Its like killing myself. (So as long as they don't feel it, I'm good)

Oh well another long week for me :]

Ja'

PS its ok to cry, I have to remember that :)

The Boy and The Girl Under the gray sky (Frenemy)

Everyone's depressed right now! Even me! Oh come on who wouldn't be! Well I

basically spent the entire day with the TV watched Gakuen Alice and got all inspired

and here comes the Avalanche, Watched Gossip Girl Finale and got depressed over Chuck and Blair's story and here comes Glee with the same theme. Hah! Talk about depression!

anyway its just swinging on by me.

But with every sickness there is a cure, Managed to talk to baby brod which kinda explains my superhero of the day in twitter :P On to the point I need to get a move on with this sad tired life

of mine. I mean it, it just gets sicker and sicker by the moment and God knows why. Maybe this is my own personal bragging rights but I guess I need to put a stop onto things that are tiring me, the irony is I can't. And why is that? Ding Dong we have a winner, Oh yes because the PAIN IS ALSO THE CURE!!! That's just much about it, like a raw fish out of water and into some guy's sushi platter :)

Why do I still smile? Guess I just can't let it get through me huh, but still he gives my strength too much credit, true I got over "that" but I can barely stand that time! Nor can I even utter a single word to him or about him. I hate it when he does that, telling me I can make it when I'm on my knees, well I guess its that part of him and me that makes me get up as of now huh? That competitive side of me, waiting to prove him wrong, and stick my head high in the sky.

Well should I go? Yes. In the end of that conversation under the rain, my enemy said something unsaid "You can run to me, when it all goes down". Yes. Weird I know but that was enough to help me get up, not like Dude's words though but they did the trick, I guess I better take the chance huh? :)

Oh and well I'm prepared to move out of France and into Vienna, Austria :) Something I've decided early this morning.

Au revoir!

*sigh worse comes to worse. yes yes I don't even know where to go. Well off to Halloween town

for this little lady. Bye Bye Bye :| Honestly, its scary but this girl has to get up to her feet and take the train :)

I am to stay with a comrade of mine namely Mister Pumpkin and Mrs. Witch guess I'll pass the time playing with Mrs. Witch's black cat and cauldron. Also helping Mister Pumpkin deliver to different monsters including Mister Boogie Man.... o.O No choice ei. 

The reason I don't want to stay is that I'll end up hurting so much to which I'm so scared of. I think this will be a good retreat for me, as well as a weird healing process better than Mr. Corner who is on vacation in Spain. :P Oh well anywhere is better than no where. 

Goodnight! I'll be leaving by the midnight train going anywhere. 

Have a Great Weekend! 

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*sigh a very lonely week for me. :| well my phone's out that's a given and it'll never be returned for i dunno until I'm at the brink of death. Seriously folks this is my mom we're talking about.

Oh well guess I'm in for some pretty serious stuff huh. I know it'll all be very hard but either way I'm pretty much very willing to take on it although *sigh. I don't have anymore to say since I'm in a state of depression. ...................................................................................................................................................................

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sometimes i just wish to die.

All the Right Moves in two left feet :)

*sigh I feel like I'm a part of something that doesn't really exist. No use getting

so sad about that part huh? I just need to suck it up! like dancing :] but dancing

is a different thing, this is like dancing without a clue on who your partner is, on

what your wearing or worse, where the heck are you dancing. :D you just have to

know the moves, be aware of the steps.

Should I just let it go like that? What? Honestly I don't know what to do with myself?

Where the hell would I find myself running off to this time and with whom? Nah that's out

of the question, of course I'm with myself! duh? Anyway I ain't got a clue really. Should I dance?

(just dance: lady gaga lol! xD) Can you believe me? I tend to joke at times like these? xD Well then me lets hold hands and journey the silent road where you just shut your pie hole no matter what :P

As for the internal damage control that's up to the chocolates and sweets although I'm so

out of my balanced diet system that its tearing me apart. Which reminds me that summer

is almost over and I didn't even got a hint of summer fun, well not until this sunday I hope.

I'm searching for some tan baby!!! XD

That ends tonight I'll be out. :D I'm gonna make it through!!! waaaaaaaaahhh!! XD

Ang Dakilang Uto uto!!! (ft. the green Revolution) xD

Whoo!! A very very tiring yet fun day!!! XD FUN isn't the term but awesome!!! XD

Well it was dull by morning but by noon in turned out great! :D
For starters well my books were aren't sold yet which means no money...
So question is how did Little Miss Spoiled had the time of her life? Simple as "PICASSO"
At first I didn't agree since I was in the state of Bankruptcy but then I began to have fun :)
Although hit by the certain De ja Vu I got over it :D

Played DDR (with my shoes at a very "dramatic" state of its shelf life lol xD) It was HARD to dance in my shoes!!!!!! XD demmet..

the rest? COMFORT FOOD!!! XD

with Picasso treating me to my ultimate state of Gluttony for sweets and caffeine xD lol

and back to school with leslie who was all for G1BO!!! xD


<--------------------------she's for G1BO AND SO ARE WE!!! xD gGO GIBO!!! XD



it was so kewl chatting with them about politics AGAIN XD
It was there that the SGT was formed xD (Samahang Gilberto Teodoro!! ) xD
EVERYTHING HAS FUN WRITTEN ALL OVER IT!! I COULDN'T BEAR !! XD



Can't eally hel but blog since i was actually a nutcase for people's orders in tagalog "DAKILANG UTO UTO!!" HAHAHAHAHAHA XD

Well I'm off to somewhere again :D Happy Mom's day guys!!! Love ya!! :D

HAPPY WEEKEND!!

Musical Time line :)

There has been a whole new kind of crazy in the Music scene and that is non other than

GLEE!!! yes yes :D It has been gleeks here and there for me. Aside from Glee i'm currently

traveling my music timeline starting from... oh well my First ever POKEMON SOUNDTRACK!!! xD which apparently got lost during those days :( I'd love to have another shot at that

soundtrack :'<

NP: IT WAS YOU - ASHLEY BALLARD

Awwwwww its too heart wrenching for me :( but here I am now :D

It was the best I ever had. All that's left of me is the COVER hahahahaha lol!

"It Was You"

When I think

of what I've been through

I can see

that you've always been there for me

to tell the truth

don't know what I'd do

without you

Half of my dreams would not come true

You are the one

that I have hoped for

Now my life

means so much more

Now we can be

together forever

Forever just you and me

be here for you

you here for me

It was you

who showed me I got a friend in you

I always knew

that you'd be right here for me

and it was you

who stuck with me

when the skies were blue

and it was you

who stood by my side

It was you

Since the day

you came in my life

I knew then

that you'd be someone by my side

Then you proved

you're a friend to me

Within my heart

wherever, you will always be

You are the one

that i have hoped for

all my life

means so much more

now we can be

together forever

just you and me

there for each other

It was you

who showed me I got a friend in you

I always knew

that you'd be right here for me

and it was you

who stuck with me

when the skies were blue

and it was you

who stood by my side

It was you

It was you

who showed me I got a friend in you

I always knew

that you'd be right here for me

and it was you

who stuck with me

when the skies were blue

and it was you

who stood by my side

It was you

It was you

who was always right by my side

when I just can't do it

you helped me through it

we're friends forever

like best friends should be

You'll always be (Darkchild, Ashley Ballard)

a special part of me (So Plush)

It was you

who showed me I got a friend in you

I always knew

that you'd be right here for me

and it was you

who stuck with me

when the skies were blue

and it was you

who stood by my side

It was you

It was you

who showed me I got a friend in you

I always knew

that you'd be right here for me

and it was you

who stuck with me

when the skies were blue

and it was you

who stood by my side

It was you

It was you

showed me I've got a friend

I always knew

that you'd be right there

It was you

stuck with me when the skies were blue

and it was you

I know that I can count on you

It was you

who showed me I got a friend in you

I always knew

that you'd be right here for me

and it was you

who stuck with me

when the skies were blue

and it was you

who stood by my side

It was you

You are a friend to me,

It was you

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Don't Stop Believin' Lyrics

Just a small town girl
livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smoky room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the nights
Streetlights, people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the nights

Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice
Just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some are born to sing the blues
And now the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Don't stop believin
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight, people
(repeat)

Don't stop!

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Inspired :D Though, sad but who cares ITS MUSIC!!! THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS :D

proud FRESHMAN DUDE.. aly buera xD

WOW! A Proud Thomasian! Yes you heard that right people, the school I ddn't expect myself to get in (thing is I always dreamt of La Salle, but who cares! That's so Last Season!) hahahaha!

(YABANG!) Anyway its raining hard... There's no problem with that except uhm let me guess....

ITS SUMMER!!!

Oh well this is another lesson about global warming people!! ACT ON IT!

I BEG YOU!!! WELL I AM! (so I'm not the hypocrite in here!)

Anyway spent my afternoon playing and laughing out loud, rolling on the floor with three

of my dearly beloved boys (Carl, Ross, and Kuya EJ) Oh you get the idea. All boys stuffs

without the Gender "stuff" Its all boys!! xD

Oh well better hit the sack will be goin' to school tomorrow and by the way......

ITS THE BIG TWO AND NINE TOMORROW! XD lol!

lotsa HUGGIES AND KISSIES! PEOPLE! I'LL BE SEEIN' YA'LL!

G'NIGHT! XD

4 Minutes

I've just watched glee and it made a whole impact on me. On how I really view myself.

Although its so sad that I'm the "SHALLOW" person I am. Fear not I've had worse but

this is HARD. They got this whole Madonna Episode where guys are treating girls like

crap and I just hate how they do it. Their like the boss of everyone and they just see

each other as well as respect them because of their talents and not just an individual.

*sigh Well back to the real deal, I'm merely going over board with myself. I don't know

I just feel very backed on the wall, and its closing in on me. I think there's pretty much no

point in getting all marshmallow and gooey. But I do! :(( A sad day for me, really. I don't

really know, I don't have a clue nor do I wanna even talk about it. Its not that I'm leaving my

problems hanging it's just that some things are way too hurtful to even touch.

I don't want to have another conversation nor negotiation for the night. For me what's done

is done, no anger, no frustration nor anxiety. Just PAIN. PURE HARD HITTING PAIN. That

I believe will be way too difficult for me to overcome.

Back to the wall...... I'm still backed at it and I feel that I'll be pushed and banged against it

many times. Then followed by a mirror that will be shattered upon my face, whose shards

will be pressed against my palms. I can only imagine what I'm in for.

Tick.Tock again went the Clock. Time's a wasting so I better get cracking.

La Partita

To the dearly departed.... *sigh.

Just when all she has to say is her sweetest yes, everything went wrong.

From the bright sunshine turned the hard downpour. The breezy air

to the tormenting winds. Spring immediately turned into a BLIZZARD.

Eventually..... It was wrong. Wrong Wrong. I came to a halt. Suddenly, the

clock stopped ticking. It was cold. I shuddered in fear. SHE WAS GONE.

Vanished. Did she even exist or have the gnomes played with my mind.

It was crazy! Was I delirious? My surroundings was in total chaos. I was

left without a clue. Then I heard something BREAK. *Crack. Something

Broke. was it glass? a MIRROR? what?! Panic was all over me! I began

to think.

Thoughts of wonder and fear. Agony and Deceit. What was wrong?

What did I do? I ran. Ran wherever my feet took me to under the

hard down pour. I ended up in the dark alley. I leaned back on the wall

trying to absorb every tiny detail on what was going on. A single thought

ran into my mind. "She was Gone." I settled for that fact. I was contented

at that moment I regretted everything between us! The memories, the

laughter and pain, HER EXISTENCE. EVERYTHING! My soul was filled

with ANGER! I loathed every bit of her even myself for being with her!

I began to shrunk to the ground. That's where I belong after all. I belong

with the dirt, the cold, the unwanted. That was when I decided to end everything.

I quickly ran back home. Got what was on top of my bed and quickly went out

on the rain. I was drenched than ever. The time has finally come, I sucked in the

cold air. I plunged the thing toward me but something was wrong. Yes definitely.

I looked down to see what was black and blue was now painted in scarlet. HER!

"I EXIST" was all that I ever heard. Was the last I had ever ought to hear in my entire

life. Then it was Already gone. The guilt, the pain, sorrow, agony, hate, anger. EVERYTHING!

Washed up together with the one I held Most Dear.

"Do you have anything else to say on her behalf?"

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Oh!! this is soooooooooooooo SCARY!!!! XP I got friggin' goosebumps... :)

Well Enjoy! This will be a treat for the IMAGINATION! :)

Its the first time for me to be doing this since my head had gone A-WALL today! :)

Can't believe I got that! :P

Have a Great Weekend :) comments will be entertained. :)

Takecare! ^_^

The Moonlit Waltz

"On a Lazy Monday afternoon, Madame and her servant lay under

the shade of an oak tree, with the calm breeze and the orange sun

above their head. As if time had stopped ticking."

*sigh I'm so sleepy... I wanna rest, it was so relaxing. I wish time really

had stopped and turned upside down. I wish for this worldly allurement

that may or may not be given, but if so I would be more than grateful.

"Her Servant had left her as the afternoon went on, and then came night.

How she wished she could waltz in a never ending tune. Lost in the

melody with no where to go back."

TICK.TOCK again went the clock and it was time to go.

Something seem to be stuck. Oh it was me. It was sad.

I couldn't leave but I'm definitely alone. I stood up and

walked under the pale moonlight and danced. And then on

until the music fades. I EXISTED.

Green is IN?????

It's been two days since I got back from Hong Kong..
yep you heard me right folks, I went out the borders and didn't
get to enjoy Post Graduation RITES! XD Well its been quite
a SLEAZY yet fun trip (surprisingly) :) Well got my adrenaline
pumping at Ocean Park with the roller coaster and the Drop! whoo!
that was so fun I even rode it with my MOM! XP It was very nice though :)
Not to mention FREEZING! (Fought a treacherous battle of MISS AND MISSED XD)

Well went back in time for Good Friday and been staying with tita for a while :)
Today got a visit from Joyce, Regi, and Cy for the afternoon and played
lotsa lotsa lotsa lotsa CARDS!! (Pusoy dos :P) Although I'm
not such a talented player at it :) but I tried hahahahahaha xD
Did my best in fact:)

Well another week and its the start of yearbook workshop :)
A long summer ahead :) Its been a tug of war for me as well
with some "resurrecting" issues
CONGRATULATIONS TO US! WE GOT OUR
HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMAS! XD (better late than never :))
Also got flying colors with my card! :) its 89.00!!! XD lol!
That's pretty much it :)

Although something's really bothering me.... *sigh
"The Man in GREEN" yikes! O.o

Bluer than BLUE :P

Seriously, I've heard of slapstick comedy but this is so ridiculous!

Don't even want to talk nor recall about it.. ugh.... :|

Again another Eucharistic Rehearsal, Commencement seating arrangements

and "Snooze" Song Practice :D Still low on energy and damn do I wanna

sleep!! :P I did last night but that wasn't the sleep I was looking for...

Got to spend the rest of the afternoon in school at Music Dept. talking

to Miss Javier and Dad well I was gonna return the Music score but well

I got caught up and so on and so on... which is kinda good since it made me

take my mind away from stress and all... :) Made me also realize how time

did fly by me so quickly... that I didn't even notice 'cause of so much WORK load

Hypocritical of me I know, to be saying to take time to notice the sky, When I

myself didn't even glance at it. But it didn't made me feel that bad though I

gotta remind myself to just have fun with life rather than taking it Like an

ADULT seriously. (Of course there's always a matter of maturity in that but

I can manage :P) and I'm still a KID in so many COUNTLESS ways I could think

of :) so ENJOY! :)) CKL DUDES! HAPPY SEVENTEEN! LOVE LOTS 17!!

On another side of town, what's with rich business and corporate heirs and

their sweater vests? Whatever it is it SURELY IS HOT!!! XD and I'm lovin' it!

Well that's a wrap? and about the slapstick comedy part....IT DOESN'T

HAVE A PUNCHLINE....BUT MY HAND....

COOL? I'M HOT!! :P

Its been two days since I got a good night's rest. Well 2 good reasons are our

Action Research and some weirded out freak-O dream I've been having ever

since I've been stressing out. Practice Week has officially begun and I got

"scared" more like oriented about my College Career. Wanna know what I'm

blabbering about? For starters How's about your book prices ranging from

1K for one subject and for one meezlee semester? and I got what? Like 5 or more

subject? and worse? you can only use the book ONCE. (great just great!)

Yeah right like I'd let that get me down. I'm more than dedicated in this than

I could ever imagine and well It just made me more desperate to take that

freakin' course with the grade requirement and all. But still! I'm one desperate

dude whose aiming for a degree in Medicine. *sigh (desperada huh? I KNOW)

and tell you 'bout the two days? Its been HELLISH HOT! PHEW!! xD

HOT HOT HOT!!! :)) especially today... Though the heat made me nauseous..

since I didn't eat much and I don't think I qualify in the HYDRATED section :P

.. as in... :| Gossip Girl's written all over mwah.... :|

weird I know.. :)) Anyway its practice practice and loads of practice..

Gotta remind myself to breathe the next couple of days :)

EXAMination'S hangOVER

Exams are over but I so want a retake! darn! didn't do my best with

Economics and Calculus! To make things worst I got a pile of Requirements

waiting to be submitted LATE on Monday... *sigh All I can say is bring it on!!!!

Instead of relaxing I freakin' stress out on these stuffs but like I said the hell

with it!! I can relax when I'm nearly dead!! xD

Be going to Bulacan for some "emergency" if it is one that I don't even have

a clue on. Will be bringing most of my stuff, and I'm kinda DEPRESSED.

damn me for remembering stuffs. Well I'll be off tonight and *sigh I oughta

take my mind somewhere more tranquil than in the city. :)

Have a Nice Weekend! :))

Lazy Jane :|

Just red a new manga... 5cm per second :) (Hold it! I should be freakin'

studying right now!!! haha xD oh well I got the laziness in me lol!) My brain's

taking a Break!! haha xD and I just laughed hard with Anji ne' :) hihihi

I wanna HUNT! *rawr :))) as well as talked about yummy stuffs!! LOL!!! XD

example: JACOB!!!! XD. Back to the main topic, this anime inspired my header :))

try to check it out its got a very nice plot consisting of 3 parts. Its a movie by the way.

it may give you guys the 'kilig" FACTOR but trust me try to watch "beneath the screen"

as in like "reading between the lines" :)

Just finished reviewing English and I'm off to lose my mind in PHYSICS

seriously folks... :D but what else can I do? Just had a Bratty day....

Sarcasm is in my down right mood... and I don't think I'll be up and running

until further notice.. *sigh... Also me and my friends discovered a NEW........

XEROX PLACE!!! XD hahaha it's kewl :) for me though..

I need a TUTOR in Math!!! demmet!! its statistics!! xD lol! :))

I wish us luck... and well lotsa Brains.. :))

One moment can definitely change everything :)

LOTSA BRAINS HUGS KISSES AND LOVE!

and I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo HUNGRY!!!!!!!!! XD

, Alyssa

FINAL EXXXXXXAMSSSS

Exam week has officially begun and I'm not taking it well enough.... seriously..

CL was harder with all the writing and computer? Is alright...

Four Days left and its el praktis week.. :P Tough day with all the crying

and touchy moments I've come to love, specifically from our Economics teacher and

our ever dearest Math teacher :) I'm also home alone as of now

and decided to play as the good little girl who studies and does her homework.

I'm dealing with TLE and HEALTH <---- Another major subject that I'm not sure

how many units does it cover but I know its more than what Physics has to offer xD

Everything's on me now.. I hope I get out alive..

Frankly, something's really bothering me :| and I don't like it...

Banana Split Sundae on the Dancefloor :))

Tough week. it's been like quizzes here and there and a lot of

projects and assignments and oh what the heck I'M GRADUATING

FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! I have no choice whatsoever. *sigh

Well ended the week with a birthday, namely LESLIE'S :)

and then.. its Off to do the REQUIREMENTS!! darn! so many things

happened, we finished El Filibusterismo which is kinda uhm INCOMPLETE!

and well cotillion was great!! :)) I'm proud of a 92 or 93 since I have 2 left feet.

Yearbook's gonna be up for publishing although we have quite a few more

holes to fill in as well as stopping the work for a while to get ready for exams.

Food sale went great! :) with me baking hahaha xD that's another first and it was

pretty safe to say that I got away with good grades in quizzes. A HUGE RELIEF.

Also got an extension with the action research thingy. which is another thorn

plucked outta my system.

Recital's done though I flunk at sight reading! (damn) what else?

As usual so many bombshells, sometimes I think its never gonna end!

ARGH! Well gonna spend the weekend in Bulacan. *phew what a relief.

Nature's good once in a while :) I need a break!! well better get a good rest

I got a feeling this will be a long WEEK yet again.

Thanks to everyone, My CKL friends, 10 - Vincent and Louise :) , Munch and Yabs,

Picasso, sis, and so many more. (couldn't have made this week without you guys!

On the down side I flunked PLM which was I dunno.. a Pain for my Mom. *sigh

"I can't please everyone" [that's a fact] (Honestly I forgot about it 'cause I was too

busy enjoying Life, clearly this is not a sarcasm)

I just hope I don't go A-wall next week with exams as well as everyone else.

GOODLUCK TO ALL THE SENIORS!! :))

Have a great weekend with books (seriously, just enjoy studying for a while) :)

Takecare! :D

Waking up in Vegas :P

Just finished with our CL project :D and well had a total blast
with everyone earlier (regi, pat, encinas, amion, lets, kia, robs,
claire, ne'san, juls, erika, ruffa, joyce, and cy) laugh trip and a
whole lot more i'll give you a hint ('Vegas) today is about hitting
on the right NOTE :P.

Well, long weekend ahead of me, better do projects and other stuffs.
*sigh long long week man I hope my mom would let me come to
nino's house tomorrow :((

Well... that's a wrap for now.. and here's a proof of madness... :))
yikes!! PLM!!

Halo-Halo, "BEER" and Coke with STRAWBERRIES :)

waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!! QUIZ QUIZ QUIZ AND MORE QUIZ!!!
darn it!!! xD but it'll be all for tomorrow, now? ITS PARTY for
ne'san, juls, rob, claire, let, and picasso :) I went home early.
(I'm such an obedient daughter :|) Well I'll be facing Physics, TLE
and CL tomorrow!!! :) wish me luck!! I'll need it!! lol!

*sigh Oh yeah got to talk to tita from Singapore and wow she's alright
with the idea! :) Well its very nice to have someone who AGREES!!! XD
:)) Well need to hit the Books VERY HARD!!! XD

Be blogging as soon as I'm up and running again :)
Can't wait to PARTY!!! XD

Oh and well "Strawberries" ended my day along with Halo-Halo, Beer and Coke :P
It was so fun :)

Timekeeper

*sigh Just spent the day laughing hard with anji ne' as well as doing our
action research.. Happy birthday to my "dad" (your getting older) XD
and to me? Happy End of the world with a slap :|

Well went to "war" with my friends... I literally defied them. *sigh
I wanna break down and shatter but I'm holding my ground. Worthless.
Not a new word. But as I've said. Still holding. Time will tell I guess.

HAPPY VALENTINES GUYS! :)

I don't mind minding the GD mind

Well here I am so pissed, Why? Oh I don't know...
Anyway got loads of stuffs to do and I simply have no time
for ARGUING AND BLABBERING. Maybe explaining but that's
all I can give.

What now? Oh the book. All's Well that Ends Well by William Shakespeare.
So far its pretty mind blowing :)) with all the conversation and stuff? I
simply can't get over =)) I see myself in Helen though. Such statements
are enough to make me bark! xD

Anyway, gonna pick up mom from the airport :P
Thou shall not let thee see thy FACE!!! xD I won't mind!!!

Just a pile of time limited stash with me :)

Its times like these that I wish I were a Vampire. *sigh
So I can have all the friggin' time in the world. :|
The problem is that I'm so Miss BUSY BODY >___<
What can I do?? THE SHOW MUST FREAKIN' GO ON!

On the positive side there's the support and well the trust I have
with my colleagues abilities :) I think we'll not only pull it off, I know
we can make the BEST out of it. :D Well obviously, my head is held
way up high I could only pray that it will be the same after it all but
like I said I have FAITH in everyone :)

Well got tons of stuffs awaiting this SENIOR and soon to be Freshman.
(Got the measurement for the toga :] ) I can't believe this but well
I'll definitely climb every mountain :)) and breach through walls!!

I WILL HELD MY HEAD HIGH TOGETHER WITH EVERYONE!! :)
WE WILL MAKE IT!!!! :)

JAMMING!! :D

Just got back from the airport, Mom went for Vietnam to chill.
On top of that, I just got back from our hellova retreat!! xD which
by the way is so FUN!!

It all started last February 3... Wednesday
The day our retreat began, It started off with an exposure and
ended up as a hell of a ADVENTURE!!
Went DOWN to uhm... the "Batis" :P which was more like
stairway to hell!! haha but it was so cool! Not to mention
TIRING no KILLER!!

The first day was so tiring and well a lot of scolding went on.
The FOOD?? AWESOME! lol!!! xD so stuffed :P

Day 2 was so cold! Not kidding :) woke up very early because of
the temp and it was a ruckus filled morning (yea right I mean its not
like we're the batch that is to stay noiseless lol) well this is the
day that well our "tears and realizations" came rushing down from
who-knows-where, also its the day that we finally opened up and shared
our pains and sufferings through the past years. I call this one the
"SHOCKER". Even I can't escape this part eventually I broke down and
cried hard. That was all for the day, but the night was an entirely different
story. Need I say more? Well let's just say everyone was in their limits and went
all out with the puffy eyes :P Got to spend the rest of the night with Sir A and Miss Bautista
"broke RULES" :)) and ATE!

Last day was goodbye. Goodbye Pains and Past, I love the fact that we got to bond :)
Had mass and Boy, LUNCH WAS A KILLER!! XD Went home with a headache that wore off
and well about the parent -child thing I'm glad it worked out.

It was a great experience but it's NOTHING compared to the four years we
spent as a batch :) and This is just another piece of the puzzle where it will be
always remembered and cherished.

[PS] We didn't "MOVE" for at least 2 DAYS, IT WAS THE THIRD DAY THAT WE WENT ALL OUT!! XD Gory? ITS NORMAL!! AND ITS LIFE! WAHAHAHA XD

Randoom love affair :P *yea right

One BORING Day dear Twiny and I decided to have a bet for the most number of guys and here's the RESULT!! XD

JUST THE OH-SO COOL GUYS I'VE HANG OUT HAHAHA XD
KIDDING! :) They're "Oh-la-la" xD I love 'em :)
Ruka
Tsubasa Andou
Hanai Haruki
Hitachiin Twins
Kyouya Ootori
Yasuchika Haninozuka
Watanuki
Sven
Benvolio
Tsuji Ryuu
Karino Tadashi
Jun Yamamoto
Chichiri
Ryotarou Tsuchiura
Keichii Shimizu
Hihara Kazuki
Ousaki-Sempai
Aidou Hanabusa
Senri Shiki
Death the Kid
Soul Evans
Toushirou
Ourio
Renji
Byakuya Kuchiki
Usui
Lee Shaoran
Wolfroam von Bielefeld
Ken Murata
Ciel Phantomhive
Asou Hiroyoshi
Archer
Lancer
Gilgamesh
Assassin
Hayate
Son Goku
Lee Koi you
D'eon
Light Yagami
L Lawliet
Kuroki
Negima
Franck Latoine
Conan
Hibari
Fuyuuki
Ranma
KURURUGI SUZAKU!

Right Back at Me

Well what I tell everyone One point for that and MORE BACK AT ME.
*sigh If it weren't for the fact that I'm a partly composed person I'd most
likely break on the floor and start cursing myself at every language I know.
What else is there for a girl with no Fashion sense, an OTAKU, a Brat?
Getting my just Desserts? Oh hell yeah. Serves me right.

Tomorrow's retreat day until Friday :) I opt to get the best out of me and
for everyone else I wish a very meaningful experience 'cause for all we know
this maybe the first and the last. (Thanks to those who bothered to give their letters
it means a whole lot ^^)

Me? What the burger blippin' am I gonna do? All I could say is:
"BRING ON THE CHOCOLATE, THE ICE CREAM, THE TISSUE
THE BEARS AND PILLOWS AND THE TANTRUMS!!!"

Oh and I'm friggin' tired.. *sigh I think all I could do is sit by Mr. Corner
and what? chat with him. (For pete's sake I call a corner HIM!!)
People, I'm so not EMO!! Just wanna be with Mr. Corner :D

Well I'll be blogging to tell about everything when I get back. :)
(so excited :)) )

~KILL ME. KILL ME NOW!!

Tick.Tock goes the Clock

Well Play Day's tomorrow and I'm already counting the
minutes :)) We can pull it off, I believe in our abilities of
course. *sigh I'm currently trembling.

What's up with the "knock you down" aura. I mean:
this picture xD HAHAHA It has Gossip girl written all over it
with a hint of lovely complex and uhm some freaky HORROR FILM i know of. xD It definitely KNOCKS ME DOWN!!

Well feeling some freakishly wild PARTYING MOOD!
Anyone available??? XD

damn it! hahaha xD Well I wish us all the best :P

Night-O!

I'm walking on sunshine :P

Done with most of my projects. *sigh as well as exams..
Now it's play.play and PLAY.. hmmmm last problem,
THE DARN COSTUMES!!! hahaha xD (i laugh at the face of danger!)

At last EXAMS are done! whoo!! what a relief!! Now what?
Well Fourth Grading period is in and we're GRADUATING!!
yikes! awww so sad :'( but I wanna live my senior days to
the fullest. hahahaha xD

Too many curtain calls to attend to :| I'm awestruck.
I know this won't be the last nerve wracking experience
I'll have.. so I'll be expecting more and a lot of hard hitting
stuffs that will kill my brain and hit me straight in the head hahaha xD

Well I wish us luck. A lot of luck for the play. I know we can pull it
off until the last minute Its kind off our talent and forte anyways. :))

well a simple thought: Walk on sunshine in the middle of the rain (wtf?)
(I got it quickly though) hahaha xD

Positive,Negative, ZERO proximity :P

*sigh Harsh week but nothing a little chocolate and music topped with friends can cure :D
... Well lightened up the Project load..
and I'm lazy as HELL to do anything... :|

I feel wretched and tired... *sigh
I wish I could just disappear and re-appear when all of this is over.
BUT I CAN'T CAN I? Of course I Can't! I can't leave everything hanging!

EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS...
I SO NEED A MATH AND FILIPINO TUTOR!!! IF ANYONE'S INTERESTED REPORT TOMORROW MORNING!! HAHAHAHA XD

*sigh well gonna pump up my adrenaline.. Good luck to everyone this week! :)
We can do this! :D

[check out my project http://dgospeltherapy.blogspot.com/] :)

Java Chip :|

Ah stupidity. It hurts even the smallest creature and even the unknowing objects.
With me included of course :P (to those who don't agree justify you answer xD)

Well it's been hard hitting and heart pounding in a good and figurative way.
One thing's for sure though, I don't see myself punching walls and going in
and out of crazy jungle-istic places.

CRAZY AS HELL AND I'M SURE AS HELL!!
That's all I can say...

It all began with a Venti Java Chip :(

Well got lotsa WORK tomorrow :D
Have a Nice Weekend :D

Fast Car by Tracy Chapman :)

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

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Music :) Got my piece :D Finished one of my projects :) Heard a song :)
Just the normal day :P eeeeeekkk!! still piled up with projects *sigh

Need I say more? Well I have nothing else to say but... THE SHOW MUST GO ON :))

INSPIRED :))

One day a princess was crying by her garden, when she opened her eyes she was sitting on the cobblestone with a scraped knee.

“Why are you crying?” someone asked out of the blue.

She turned around to see whom it was but she didn’t find anything.

“I’m over here” the voice called softly.

By the edge of the cobble stoned floor was planted a Daffodil. Not just an ordinary Daffodil but also a very pale one in color. Its leaves were slightly torn as well as its petals were near to torn.

“Now tell me little princess, what’s with those tears?” it asked kindly.

She wiped her tears and sniffed and went beside the Daffodil.

“Its my sisters, they are very pretty princesses you see, *sniff and I’m very sad that I can’t be like that and *sniff please my father *sniff” she wiped her tears.

“There There princess, there is no such thing as pleasing your father or being like your sisters, in fact you can’t please everyone but you are to remember that whatever you do, everyone will be proud and happy for you as long as you gave your best.” The Daffodil smiled.

The princess touched the Daffodil’s petals, caressing it carefully.

“How can you say that?” she asked.

“ I have bloomed to my fullest dear princess, I know what the bees talk about, what the weeds gossip, what the rain cries and to whom the wind sings to. I don’t need any flower to tell me how bright yellow I need to be or what to give to the bees for honey, because I know that whatever will happen the soil I have come to know and love will cling on to me until I reach my full bloom by spring.” The Daffodil answered.

“It’s spring! Why aren’t you as bright as the other flowers?” the princess said aloud.

“Its again time for another journey dear princess. You are not to walk alone as I didn’t. Like me, you’ll get to bloom. Bloom as pretty as your sisters or even something more than that. Like me you will get there. Even by just one step at a time, you will get there. And just like me, you will also have your own soil to cling and hold on to.” The Daffodil smiled brightly as the sun.

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Just the daily random stuffs I write. :)
For Picasso ^___^ & my friends [CKL!]

The Sweet Escape

Just as I thought. Bombshells drop one after the other. *sigh No backing out this time around.
Well, for starters how 'bout a pile of complex projects and some expectations to fill?
Mind Boggling??? I don't think so. That's not all of IT! It's times like these that I don't
believe I'm a friggin' fifteen year old. The last thing I need is a meteor to fall from the
the sky and hit me right on!

Well its been another CRAZY Day!! hahaha I mean it!!
The Pizza and the Slave :)
Happy New Year!?! xD

Well I hope I can finally get my DOLCE VITA!!! XD